That Guy

Do you have that one person in your life that you have totally no expectations from but manages to surprise you? Someone you talk to for hours and hours without noticing the passage of time?

Someone who pays attention to you and manages to remember every little thing you've told him, however trivial? Makes you feel that; he knows what you're about and you totally understand each other, always on the same page when having a conversation? Trust me, there's nothing more exciting than a guy asking you about something you thought he'd never remember. Something you yourself took to be inconsequential.

Do you have that one guy who brings a smile to your face, just by thinking about him?

Well…I do! And I totally appreciate him for being the person that he is because with him; everything is real, no pretense, no invisible standards to live up to. I can tell him anything and everything and not be ashamed. With him, I can be myself without him getting judgmental.

Best of all; he is my FRIEND which makes me happy. Because of him, I'm now able to put the pieces of, 'what I'd like in a boyfriend' puzzle together. It is shaping out to be a very good puzzle.  And the only expectation we have from each other is making a lasting and strong bond out of our friendship.

I hope you have someone like that in your life because, sometimes, we all need a male friend who is and will always be there for us without judgment and expectations.

xxxShanahxxx

First Impressions.

I think that a first impression has something to do with the different type of personalities that is extroverts and introverts. I have realized that first impressions are the hardest a person can ever make.

An extrovert is a person who is energized by being around other people. Extroverts would rather talk to someone rather than sit and be occupied by their own thoughts. They enjoy social situations in that they often seek them out because of their love for being with people. You find that people never judge extroverts negatively because they make/give a good first impression due to their love for people.

It is said that an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people, however good their social skills may be. When introverts are alone, it isn't necessarily a sign of depression; it means they either need to regain their energy from being around people or they simply want the time to be with their own thoughts.

I happen to fall in the latter category. I can be good with people when found in a good mood or call it proper timing and sometimes, I want to be left alone.

I'm pretty okay with being by myself, keeping my own company which people find strange. Some put it down to a dislike for people while others call it pride, which is all untrue. I find it so hard making friends because I hate idle chit-chat especially with strangers. I'd rather be by myself than make friends out of strangers.

People can get so judgmental when meeting them for the first time if you don't show any pleasure just indifference. It's not that I hate people, sometimes meeting new people needs a lot of energy and effort especially if it’s a friendship you want to maintain and at that moment, I find myself not up to it. So I let people think what they want to so we move on from that situation.

You find that someone already formed a negative opinion against you due to the poor first impression you made on the first meeting. I get a kick out of surprising people on a second meeting because then, they realize that I'm not the person they thought I was. I'm actually good to get along with in the right environment and friends. 

I believe that people should first get to know a person under different circumstances or environment before they judge someone they hardly know. Introverts are usually under estimated and over-looked due to their reserved nature yet they are probably more fun than extroverts. There should be room for doubt during first meetings before a person's entire character is judged solely on a first impression.

xxxShanahxxx

First Loves

Before we grew up to become sophisticated young men and ladies. Before us girls discovered boys, and before we learnt how to deal with life's little stresses and problems. We had fun little hobbies that used to bring us pleasure every time we carried them out, when we were younger.

When I was younger, I used to draw as a hobby and I loved it. I would draw every weekend and possibly after classes sometimes at school. It’s something that used to make me relax and stop thinking of school problems and other issues that a young girl is sometimes forced to deal with.

As I grew up, dealing with high-school and later university, I stopped drawing. The urge would come to me now and then but I would rarely act on it. This doesn't mean I gave up on it or forgot entirely. Sometimes we have to prioritize and in this case; school had to come first because that laid the foundation of my entire life.

A few months back, my brother returned for vacation. He saw all my art books and asked if I still drew. Sadly, I answered him in the negative. His thinking was, I stopped because I had to deal with school and exams but that didn't mean I should give it up. He knew how passionate I was about it. I realized then that we should never completely give up on something that we love no matter how busy we are.

The funny thing is, a friend also reminded me of how good I was and the pleasure I used to gain from it. Inspiration is a funny thing. After having a good pep-talk with my best friend, ideas begun popping up as I felt the excitement build. I remembered how I would get excited about a design, the finished product. The rush to draw came back and I was happy about it. I had missed not being able to do so all those years that I had stopped.

However much we may be young ladies and men, try not to forget about the things you loved as a child. They are the ones that remind you of your childhood and sometimes you need them to remind you of your innocence.

PS: I would have loved nothing more than to use one of my sketches but I don't have them scanned maybe next time.