We Don't Always Get What We Wish For... 08/11/2014

I wish he'd let me forget him.

I wish I'd had 6months to a year to get over him and the feelings he arouses in me.

I wish he'd never reached out at a point where his name was becoming a distant memory.

I wish I never felt this way about him knowing it cannot be.

I wish I didn't have to deal with the thought of 'us' again when I'd just buried it.

I wish my heart didn't ache with thoughts of him.

I wish I had the strength to cut him out of my life once and for all.

And most of all; I wish he wasn't who is.

It'd make the loss of him much easier.

But we don't always get what we wish for.

 Xx Shanah.

I have this habit of making little notes on my phone 50% of the time because it is always at hand and this is one of them. The downside of writing on the phone is the lack of time to make necessary transfers. I get to it a little later than I should. The notes are either deleted or sequestered away on email but often deleted during general clean up sessions at the end of the year when the feelings/mood that inspired them is nonexistent.

Black Rose

She smiles, I smile
She walks, No she glides softly by me changing night into day
She opens her mouth to speak, and so sounds ring in my head
She speaks, and I want to dance to her rhythm
She moves ever so gently, increasing my desires,
As I place my arms around her waist, Hold and squeeze unto me, I want to melt into her body, and discover the base of her warmth
Her beautiful black body that, no human mind could ever conceive
She's love She's truth She's real, as real as the stars that shine in the heavens
As real as the sun that bathes her body, As real as the moon that glows and the birds that sing and the rose
That blossoms in spring for she is that rose
And not just any rose,But a black rose, Black rose stands tall and stronger than any other plant
A black rose, that stands as creator, of nations of Black rose
That never loses her petals, and blossoms all year round
Black rose,
Sweet rose,
Thorn less rose
Eternal rose
Please look my way,
Please look my way
Please look my way
Black rose

Ps: A friend of mine wrote this and I liked it. Decided to share it.